Realest, Most Emotional Thing I Wrote In 2012

Where ever I end up, what ever I do I don't ever want to forget about my family. Where is Sharon when I need her :( Sheesh. Well, All I know is I can't help them If I don't help myself. Somethings have to change one of them will be me. But all of this is confirming that I don't have time to feel lonely. I have so much I want to do. I wouldn't want a husband telling me I can't do this or that. I just want to do the things I would like to do. Things that would make me feel fulfilled. Grown up life will be interesting but I think it will be the time I face my demons. The time where I face all things left behind. I don't want anyone thinking I left them behind. And trust me this is hurting me. But a change could be beneficial. I am being forced to handle stand up for myself, but love for family will always manifest itself. I want to showthat I l ove and support them. I want to be that rock my brother can come and run under anytime he needs help. If the need be, I will be the one to encourage him to set goals and achieve them. I won't let anyone or thing stop me. I have got to grow the home front.