y family is so disfunctional
I feel like my mom picks arguments with me. She does it conciously and subconciously. One minute it's You were being rude. Another its, "I know what your aunt is telling you".
She doesnt realize I am a free thinker. I've always been tht way. And the times where she says I am being rude or mean, she has taken my words out of context. Like just now.
I am tired. It is tiredsome dealing with people in a house who think I am out to get them. Maybe they are jealous. Maybe they are surprised to see me doing so well. Well, no matter what no one can imagine what I am feeling like at the moment. Regarless of if you know the facts of my life, it's another thing to deal with these people on a daily basis. I can't help it that I am doing so well and I do not mean to sound cocky. But I;ve chosent his life for myself and you surely could have done the same thing. You just chose to take a differnt route. And my oh my how I wish I could take your pain away. How I wish I could ersae the problems you face or slip you money when ever you needed it.I wish I could give you a ride when ever you wanted it, And I wish I could make your life alittle bit easier. Please believe If i could I would. But I rely alot on others aswell... More than materially, but mentally, emotionally and Spiritually. Perhaps I will never know what it is like to have a family in unison. I just look at others, and even being aruond such merry ment is good for me. It doesnt make me uncomfortable. It just reminds me of what a famliy should be like. All the while mine.. They are mad at me. Un- pleased with me. Maybe if I wasnt so succesful @ this endeavor, maybe I could get along with them more. Maybe I oculd relate and we'd all feel like we're in the same boat. I will pray tonight that my family becomes one. But who knows. Only time will tell.
She doesnt realize I am a free thinker. I've always been tht way. And the times where she says I am being rude or mean, she has taken my words out of context. Like just now.
I am tired. It is tiredsome dealing with people in a house who think I am out to get them. Maybe they are jealous. Maybe they are surprised to see me doing so well. Well, no matter what no one can imagine what I am feeling like at the moment. Regarless of if you know the facts of my life, it's another thing to deal with these people on a daily basis. I can't help it that I am doing so well and I do not mean to sound cocky. But I;ve chosent his life for myself and you surely could have done the same thing. You just chose to take a differnt route. And my oh my how I wish I could take your pain away. How I wish I could ersae the problems you face or slip you money when ever you needed it.I wish I could give you a ride when ever you wanted it, And I wish I could make your life alittle bit easier. Please believe If i could I would. But I rely alot on others aswell... More than materially, but mentally, emotionally and Spiritually. Perhaps I will never know what it is like to have a family in unison. I just look at others, and even being aruond such merry ment is good for me. It doesnt make me uncomfortable. It just reminds me of what a famliy should be like. All the while mine.. They are mad at me. Un- pleased with me. Maybe if I wasnt so succesful @ this endeavor, maybe I could get along with them more. Maybe I oculd relate and we'd all feel like we're in the same boat. I will pray tonight that my family becomes one. But who knows. Only time will tell.
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