My ex sometimes hits me up. And I don't know why. It's not like I like him. It's not like we're cool. And it's definitely not like we get along. But I guess somewhere in his heart, he is concerned about me. He want's to know how I'm doing, what progress Iv'e made in life, who I'm dating (if I am). He's even tried to get back w/ me a couple times, asking to take me out or can we "start over". Truth is, all the starting over in the world and all the first dates can't hide the fact that he's a messed up individual, that he doesn't "have" Jehovah", and that his own mental problems hold him back from having a successful relationship. All I can say is I've wished the best for him in the end even if the moment I've hated him. I cannot be in the present and still look at him the same. I can't erase all the pain he's caused me, and uncertainty. I don't think anyone in their right mind who's loved as hard as I have, will be able to still recieve him the same.

Oh well. I appreciate the checking up. It's just sad things will never be the same.