Well, Today she found out about my plan. It went better than I thought because I thought she would be more. hysterical, but it was the opposite. She almost ended the convo quickly but I knew that couldn't happen. I had corrected her when I needed to and said what I had been needing to for so long.

I've been so nervous bout bringing it up which is the real reason why she hasn't heard of it yet. But when she asked me why  I hadn't told her, I said because I was trying to make sure everything was sure. Oh well.

She said something pretty interesting.. something for me to think about.

After she left I did. and what I'm thinking is, if you really wanted it that way you would have made it that a long time ago. You can't have your cake and it eat too. Although I would like to supply you with that cake so you can eat it, that isn't feasible. You've got to serve Jehovah on your own accord. I've been wanting to attend meetings with you for the longest. I've been wanting to go out in service w/ you for the longest. I've been wanting to have family worship night for the longest. But in the end I had to go it alone.
And sometimes we have to go it alone. Sometimes we have to move on from our past and be stronger than we were yesterday. Sometimes over night.

At this point Im almost grown. I want as much memories as I can with her. As soon as possible.
My last wish is to cause her any pain. I hope this is something where she can be happy for me about.

I'm redy for the change. This night has marked a momentous time in my life.


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